Dear Stranger,

You might feel like an empty shell with a heavy heart. Feeling like everything inside is dark, messy, painful and overwhelming.

Not being able to experience the joy of being surrounded by your loved ones, and feeling painfully alone, painfully yourself, painfully existing.

Feeling completely shattered and anxious, even ashamed of just being yourself with your own dark thoughts. 

I have been there too.

I won’t say that I know what you feel exactly, because everyone is unique. And even if we would’ve had the exact same experience, still it would be different, as you are your own person, your own heart, your own brain, your own beautiful singularity. 

And, yes : You are an irreplaceable unique soul. There wasn’t anyone like you before and there won’t be any in the future. 

And those dark thoughts you have aren’t necessarily about wanting to die, but most likely about dying to live. 

It’s not about the money, the travels, the many relationships, the superficial.

It’s about enjoying the sun on your skin, experiencing eating a meal with its full taste. Smiling without an ache in your chest. Sleeping and waking up rested. Enjoying your own company. Walking without feeling void and pointless. All the deep worth living type of experiences.

And this my friend is possible.

It takes a lot of resilience, a lot of doubts and tears, a lot of steps forwards and backwards.

A lot of time.

But remember that everyone’s timeline is different hence never compare yourself to others. 

Treat yourself like you would treat your most precious person. Allow yourself to feel all the emotions you need to feel.

Allow yourself to be angry, sad, exhausted, lost, anxious, desperate, confused, ashamed. 
You are never weak. 

In fact, you have such an immense strength that only needs your loving hand to hold on to it once you see it.

And I know, you must be tired. Tired of always be the one fighting. Tired of feeling like no one understands the words you are trying to say. Tired of even trying to speak. Tired of even just trying.

But it is worthy because YOU ARE WORTHY. 

So please, if you can don’t hesitate to seek help and professional help. There’s no shame in that. It’s not a failure. It’s not meant to worsen the situation, on the contrary.

I never thought I’d experience what I’m experiencing now. I realise all the things I would have missed and all the things that is still to happen.

It’s not easy and it takes time, vulnerability, introspection and self loving. 

But to build or rebuild oneself is the bravest most loving and strongest act one can do.

Step by step. Little by little. Celebrating every single tiniest achievements.

I wish I could hug you so tightly that you’d feel your pieces getting back together. But as I can’t I only have this letter. And I hope it will help you feel less alone, seen and cared for.

You deserve love, happiness, sympathy respect and peace.

And I wish with all my heart you’ll be the first one to understand this about yourself.

You are a beautiful warrior who deserves the best.