
Wonderful happy glorious me,
NO hang on wait, that can not be,
I’ve always been my own worst enemy,
The hardest to please ,
With emotional needs,
Unable to understand why I cant breed,
Constantly battling selfish silent wars,
Invisible issues creating my flaws,
Some say awareness becomes an acceptance,
I see awareness as a lethal entrapment,
Stuck in the knowledge that this is me,
Is happiness something that just can not be,
I try to reach out and seek the right help,
Never strong enough to help myself,
Now and then there’s a glimmer of hope,
NOPE!
Just another fall down that slippery slope,
I just can’t accept that this is just me,
Surely there’s more, I want to feel free,
How can I know what’s normal head thought,
When I understand nothing of what I’ve been taught,
Am I uneducated or simply naïve,
Or am I now ready to give up and leave,
And when I say leave I don’t mean get up and leave,
I mean leave this head space, this perception of me,
But that would take more than I’m willing to give,
I don’t want to just exist
I want to LIVE!
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